so hi all havent written in this since the last time man thats a long time so schools almost over and me and nate have been together for three months now its been great and getting better everyday who knew this could happen i still cant believe it so december is almost here and i can sit on my ass and do nothing hopefully i can hang out with my friends that would be nice i do miss them ok well ill be back in three more months lol

love to all that read this

so i told natalie while nate was sitting in the room this is what i said its pretty funny and childish but i was so nervous. 

"So i like him and he likes me" yeah thats what i said and she said, "ur saying that like its a surprise it was so obvious"  i was like what no way well ok and i told her to always speak her mind cuz i dont want to make this uncomfortable for her even it will but ill try to keep it as normal as possible.  but yeah big weight was lifted when i told her it felt very good.

so were together and its great b/c really its still the same except we touch and hold hands alot so yeah now that i think about it thats how it should start out we should be like really good friends and then go out not oh i like u but i dont know u that well then go out cuz well that didnt work the last time with some other guy BLAH

anyways yeah so im going to marry him too cuz i just am

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HE LIKES ME!!!!! 

So last night we were all sitting on the couch really close like normal and he starts holding my hand.  Oh my gosh i was like no way this is happening. so obviously he likes me so he text me to call him when i got homw and we talked a little.

"So u like me?" I said. "Yeah since that weekend at Nicks house(his older bro)."

So yeah then i brought up the question of what about natalie and well we dont know we have to tell her but we rnt going to do anything like sneak around b/c we love her too much.  Also in our talk he said i wanted to wait to do anything when he moved out of his rents but he didnt want anyone to snatch me up.  Aw how sweet and he said now i can take u on a proper date. again awwwwww.  Im just so excited this has never happened to me crazyness so yeah im just really happy right now.  hehehehehehehehehe

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so i have lived next to the denney family all my life and am best friends/sisters with natalie and recently maybe 4 years ago have become good friends with her older brother nathan

so natalie is 16 and im 19 but we are great friends and i couldnt imagine life with out her and well nathan is 20 so we are pretty much the same age if u didnt notice ha ha ha

well i have had a crush on nathan a few times since we became closer but this past weekend my feelings for him grew even more because we hung out for 3 days like sun up to sun down and i loved it

the 3 of us stayed at their older brothers house to watch his dog and natalie didnt want to spend the night but i wanted to b/c i had just gotten back from a fam trip and i needed to not be at home so i decided to stay and keep nate company well the whole weekend he was flirting with me more than ever it was not normal he sat closer to me than he has ever but its hard to tell if that is "sister brother stuff" or not but i just cant figure it out but also how he looks at me right in the eyes with this look like he is looking at me soul

i just cant tell if he looks at me like a sister or not but the other thing is i dont want him to like me b/c of natalie i mean it will feel wrong to do that to her

i am so confused i just want him to tell me i would like to ask him but i cant do that b/c we see each other alot i pretty much live over at their house

oh side note when we at his brothers house he said he had a dream that he was getting married and it was someone i knew the only people it could be is me or natalies friend hales b/c the rest r his relatives i thought that was weird and wouldnt tell me who it was kinda strange i guess

oh and last night the 3 of us were in his room like normal and i was on his bed and he come over and got on the bed too oh never mind he prolly thinks of me as a sister b/c im natalies friend but that doesnt matter gosh i just like him so much

i mean we can talk about anything, i make him laugh, he makes me laugh, we have fun together, hes very sweet, great with kids, and a good christian man

i have never seen him as a brother to me just a good friend

and thats pretty much it if u any opinions or questions let me know